Wednesday, May 23, 2007
@ 1:38 AM
i didnt doubt your love for me. i just wasnt ready.
hello everyone.
had the np briefing today. and careerfair on top of that.
i guess its true afterall, what lewis said.
well, a fact's a fact. i cant do nothing about it. its a fact that i have an L1r5 of >20, its a fact that i most probably wont get promoted and appointed. and its a fact that i have noone to blame but me. yes, i can only blame myself. afterall, who stopped me from scoring good results? i guess it was my laziness and slackness. but, blaming myself and reproaching myself wont do no good to the dire straits im in now. so i can only make the most out of the june hols. and bridging is a good thing, i've forced myself into thinking it. yes and i've decided to give up gym and opt for tuition though you can hear my heart breaking.
so on saturday, im just gonna do my best and try to hope for a promotion but my hopes arent too high up thats it.
well, i've been thinking lately. i just seem to find out that people at ahs are so realistic that its scary at times. it may be good for me, cos im too dreamy for my own good and can probably wake me up. but they think too much of themselves and for themselves. its like as though the whole world revolves around you and that if you're in a bad mood today, its gonna affect us all. well, thats the vibes people are giving me. they act like the world crashed when something happens to them and act nonchalent when its not involving you. its so. self centered i might call it. and its coming on even stronger now that the myes are over and people grieve over their results? or probably rejoice. you get a b4 and act like its the worst grade when right in front of you theres someone getting an f9. yes i know that certain people haven certain expectations of themselves and that a b4 to them is LOUSY but can you be more sensitive and less realistic? you're not the only person alive you know. okay nevermind.
yes, well thats that.
hello june holidays, hello mugging. actually, im looking forward to a month of mugging. i'll see what kind of results i get when i mug. and compare. okay.
byeee.